I have always lived in between.
After coming home from a perspective-altering voyage to the
South my parents’ house is no longer my house. My new apartment in the city is
still too new to feel like my house. So I am always in between.
I finished my degree two years ago but cannot seem to leave
the student life behind and do something stable. Like a job. So I am always in
between.
I was a young child in one country and an older child in
another so my grounding memories are all mixed up and I seem to have two
childhoods. So I am always in between.
I grew up with two languages, two cultures, two cuisines.
Neither is better, so I am always in between.
I believe that a person must be strong and that it is up to
them to forge their way in life, yet I believe that people should help one
another in any way they can because I know that the path is difficult for
everyone. So I am always in between.
I have studied the Arts and the Sciences. Arts put
everything into perspective and Sciences put everything under a microscope,
which is also a kind of perspective. So I am always in between.
I am a Libra and I can never seem to make a clear and
concise decision; but then again, I don’t really believe in astrology; but then
again, I am always weighing the options, and I am always in between.
I have learned in a classroom and I have learned on the
land. Both are spaces of knowledge and I dance between them.
I am not sure if it is good or bad to always be in between.
This way I see more possibilities than some others might, and I experience more
variety, but of course my route then seems doubly complicated. I know that we
can attract that which we seek into our lives but at the same time sometimes it
feels as if when we try our best to do this, we end up doing the opposite. This
is another kind of in between.
Shall I embrace the in between or shall I put my foot down
and say “poo poo to you, In Between, I choose __________ !!”
Sigh…. for the moment, I am still in between.
